Rise above the rats

Today was my first day back on track going to the gym at 6:30. I got up at 5:30, had coffee, got dressed, drover over to the lodge gym, used a bunch of resistance machines then used the NuStep machine for 40 minutes for my cardio. My heart needs it. I’m supposed to be doing aggressive cardio for 40 minutes most days. Lately I’ve just been walking the dog for 20-40 minutes. My plan is to go to the gym every day when they open and knock out my workout and get it done. I’ve got some family / life issues eating away at my brain and exercise and patience are the answer. This too shall pass. Rise up. Take the high road. Be the better person. No response is the best response. 

Train in the distance

I’m slightly chilly even with the throw blanket on me and the dog on my lap. It’s 5:06am and I woke up on the couch a little while ago feeling congested and struggling to breathe. I had a few days of feeling better once the Covid test was negative but then I felt like I was starting to come down with a cold a few days ago. After I woke up I went to the bathroom, took my levothyroxin and used my nebulizer to help my breathing. Now I’m awake. This same thing happened yesterday too. It’s silent in the house and I can hear a train in the distance and it’s sounds moving on the track. I don’t know that I’ve ever heard that before from this house. 

Tuesday some of the neighbors are having a “ say farewell” lunch to me and Mike at a nearby restaurant because we are stepping down as neighborhood representatives. The recognition would have taken place at the big neighborhood picnic on August 31 but Mike and I had Covid. We had to ask the 2 incoming reps and others to step up and run the picnic. So now they want a make up farewell event. I don’t want to go but we are going to be polite. I had been a rep for four years and Mike for one, although he’s been helping with neighborhood stuff for four years too. I just got burned out and sick of it. Some of the neighbors are rude and act entitled. That offends me a lot and I just got sick of dealing with it. I’ll go to the farewell lunch to be nice.

Thursday I have a colonoscopy scheduled so Wednesday is prep day. I have to read the instructions carefully so I don’t screw anything up and have to repeat it. Yuck. I’ll be really glad when that’s over!

I have a lot of yard work to do. There are tons of dead flowers that are done blooming for the season and overgrew their places so I have a bunch of stuff to rip out. Too many perennials have spread and are choking out my roses. I’m going to try to get it done today and tomorrow if I’m up to it. I also have a lot of housework and grocery shopping to do so I’d but get going pretty early today. Mike is still sleeping. 

2:57 am

So I woke up over an hour ago thinking about stuff and couldn’t go back to sleep so I just got up. I fell asleep on the living room couch before 9 so I got several hours of sleep. I’ll try to sleep on the plane later. It’s a 4 hour 40 minute flight so I can zonk out then if needed. There has been an issue between me and a couple in- laws for the last week that has been very hurtful and disturbing. Mike has been upset over it all week too. I only went to the wedding yesterday for him. I did not want to see some people. You just put on your best fake smile and get through it. Suck it up Buttercup. The good thing is that now I see their true colors. When people show you how they really are believe them. Don’t make up excuses and sweep it under the rug. Karma prevails in the end. 

August weather

It’s a little after noon on a Monday. The weather is warm and hazy. I took Bitzi for a nice walk, worked out, tweaked my suitcase that I packed yesterday and did a bit more pre- cruise prep. We’re flying out Sunday and boarding the ship Monday. I’ve checked the weather forecast for all the ports in hopes of packing well and only just what I really need. We’re going on a 7- night Alaskan cruise and only doing carry on luggage and not checking bags at the airport. This is the first time trying this but in general I honestly do tend to take way too much stuff. I have a new nice carry on bag, a nice Swiss gear backpack for under the seat and my big hippy purse bag. That will be enough. I’m always fascinated by the foliage and wildlife on trips. I also love people watching. I’m so excited!

Gearing up

I’m drinking my one coffee. I just got up and opened all the blinds in the front room, kitchen and living room. I’m going to drive down to Fulton County this morning and stay a few days. I’m going to spend time with family. I need it. It’s supposed to be hot and humid with scattered thunderstorms the next few days. I hope I don’t get caught in any bad weather while driving. 

I felt like crying a couple times yesterday. Sometimes things get to me. I know I overthink things and am too sensitive but hey, I am what I am. 

Overcast morning

It’s early morning and I’m drinking coffee with the dog on my lap typing with my index finger on my IPad. It’s garbage day. I got up first, gathered up and took some of the garbage out, fed the dog, opened the blinds, tidied up the house and now am in my news reading / listening to time and my IPad tapping. 

I overdid it yesterday with the weed pulling. I was sitting / laying in the grass several times with exhaustion. The nice warm shower last night felt especially delicious washing away all the little itchy bits of weeds that had made themselves under my clothes as I carried so many armloads of folded up broken branches and dried flowers and weeds to my garden wagon. I got a LOT done and the yard looks so much better. My legs, feet, glutes and back are pretty grouchy today.

I need to do laundry today, walk the dog and do chores I didn’t get done yesterday. I got too involved doing the weed removal yesterday so paused some things I intended to do. In a couple weeks we’re going to our nephew’s wedding then going to the airport early the next morning to fly to Seattle and going on an Alaskan cruise for a week. We’re both excited about it. I’m kind of avoiding my husband the last few days. It’s a self protection mode so I don’t go completely crazy. I just need space. I always have. Us both being retired created a situation I have never before encountered. Being with anyone 24/7 for a long time day after day can have some problems for humans.